I mean it. Please come home..all is forgiven, even that time in Poli-Sci in college when you let me drift between the islands of what I knew I knew. I knew what a social democrat was the instant I passed in my little blue exam book then, intending to slap my head mistakenly poked my pen through the skin of my forehead. I bled like a pig as I walked that long walk up the steps of the auditorium where I'd just finished my exam.
Heavy drugs, methadone, ease my physical pain but short-circuit the synapses in my memory. It takes a special kind of ego to expect that my fine readers want to read about the effects of pain. Anne has it right. She tells stories. I well told story beats an essay every time.
A list of ten things in order of their escape from my mind. Ten mentally fit observations of my impression of me.:
- There is only one truth about life: We'll all shuck the mortal coil. Yep, that's it. From the moment we're born it's a race to the moment we die. Real maniacs say things like, I wish this day would end. That statement means I wish I would die, sooner...'
- Emotional feelings are the best of 3 types of feelings. This is where the limitless world of imagination is. Einstein said, "I believe two things are infinite: space and the human imagination, but I'm not quite convinced about space." Lazy contemplative moments, daydreams, for example, are strong indicators that God is.
- Intellectual feelings are the second best feelings. Thus a ranking to this point: Best: God is; next best: What if...? what if...' is the start of another type of feeling and is unique because it doesn't offer answers, only questions. An interesting paradox: "What if I'm not aware of myself?"
- Last, but not unimportant, is the physical feeling that we all understand is physical fitness. How great does it feel to strengthen muscles, to attain a level of good health, to make love, to kiss a child goodnight, to call your mother or father? Easily imagined, these physical stimuli direct right back to both imaginative (intellectual) and emotional feelings. And thus the circle of contentment orbits our lives.
- Don't tell me what's wrong, tell me what's right.
- We have greater control over the lower feelings, the physical ones than we do of higher feelings, the intellectual and the emotive.
- Want self-esteem? Do esteem-able things.
- Want to feel good? What did you do today?
- Want to feel great? What did you learn today?
- Are you afraid of death? There's another way to ask this question. Do you feel that you are outside of the cycle of life, which is the one true thing in this world? Or, for those of us who believe in God, do you fear reunion with The Almighty? For atheists of good conscience, are you proud of the legacy you leave behind? For everyone, did you leave this world a better place than the one you were born into?
Sure, we feel pain, which means we're alive. God bless us all, Colin